Halsey is opening up about living with bipolar disorder.
“I’ve been committed twice since [I became] Halsey, and no one’s known about it. But I’m not ashamed of talking about it now,” the singer told Rolling Stone about in-patient mental health treatment she’s received. “It’s been my choice. I’ve said to [my manager], ‘Hey, I’m not going to do anything bad right now, but I’m getting to the point where I’m scared that I might, so I need to go figure this out.’ It’s still happening in my body. I just know when to get in front of it.”
As a condition of her bipolar disorder, “Halsey does not always quite know what version of herself she’ll be when she wakes up,” according to the story.
She was diagnosed at 17 after a suicide attempt and said she is currently experiencing an extended manic period.
In fact, the album she’s working on, her third, is “the first I’ve ever written manic,” Halsey explained. It will include songs she wrote in minutes and samples everything from hop-hop to country in her new music.
“It’s soooooo manic. It’s literally just, like, whatever the f*** I felt like making; there was no reason I couldn’t make it,” she said. She considers her calm periods “boring,” and said she hates the depressive episodes of bipolar disorder. The mania makes her art better, she feels. The singer said she no longer drinks hard alcohol, do drugs or smokes pot. She is living a clean, productive life. “I support my whole family,” she said. “I have multiple houses, I pay taxes, I run a business. I just can’t be out getting f*** up all the time.”
Currently recording the new album in the Hollywood Hills, she said she won’t leave home for days on end. But she’s happy to do a grocery run, she said, because becoming a “co-dependent, helpless thing” just isn’t who she wants to be.