Congrats are in order for Emily Ratajkowski! The model and actress announced on Monday that she is expecting her first child with husband Sebastian Bear-McClard.

Ratajkowski shared the exciting news via a Vogue cover shoot which she shared on Instagram. “Grateful & growing 👼 Thank you @voguemagazine for this very special cover,” she captioned the digital cover, which features the headline, “Emily Ratajkowski: Why I Don’t Want to Reveal the Gender of My Child.”

The moving personal essay that the mother-to-be penned to accompany her announcement tackles a complex web of emotions she admits to feeling alongside her happy news — chief among them the innate loneliness that comes with pregnancy and the discomfort she feels watching other couples’ awkward “gender reveal” displays.

“When my husband and I tell friends that I’m pregnant, their first question after ‘Congratulations’ is almost always ‘Do you know what you want?'” she writes. “We like to respond that we won’t know the gender until our child is 18 and that they’ll let us know then. Everyone laughs at this.”

Ratajkowski and Bear-McClard announced their surprise nuptials in February 2018, just a few weeks after they went public with their relationship. She opened up to ET about married life later that year, saying, “More than anything, it’s just nice to be with someone you love.”

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